The sweetest things in life

Yesterday didn't manage to sleep well...only slept 2 hours or so only...Not sure why. Anyway, told DC that we can't proceed more than friends...kinda worried for his spiritual walk though. But, certain things still need to be made clear. Work in office was slow for me....was feeling very tired. Had a 4 hours tax forum..slept throughout the session...didn't learn anything from it...haha. In the evening, TH messaged me to tell me that he will call me at night as he has something to tell me.... :). Anyway, Xiao Ching was not very happy about what has been happening. On the way back from office, we quarelled...i was very unhappy. She says she is jealous. That's a sad thing to hear....at night, i was a bit cold to my family....XC spoilt my mood....then met TH online as well...also a bit unhappy when he seems to prefer to watch his korean show than to call me immediately. I told him I was unhappy. So, he called me. Highlight of the conversation is that he says he want to be with me and if I want to be with him...of course I said yes....then we had a nice chat on the mobile and on MSN...with his web cam :)...We had difficulty logging though....hehehhee. Nite !

Early in the morning, sent a message to TH to tell him i missed him. His reply was "Haha, ming ling, that's so so nice. :) *blush* felt a warm fuzzy feeling when i read the sms".... was busy with work...then late evening...went on MSN and TH was online. He messaged me...I was happy because the reason for me to went on MSN was to see him online. Then i needed to tell him something important, so he called me. Then I told him that i will be willing to go to Penang to be with him and he said he was very happy to hear that. After that we chatted on Gmail for a while, before I needed to leave the office as Xiao Ching had a bad experience with her boss. So, we left the office at 7:30pm. Chatted with Xiao Ching in the car until it was 9:22pm. Then I drove home. Shortly after arriving and preparing dinner, TH called me....talked for about 21 minutes. As usual, he was talking to me in the car after finishing work. After that, i finished my dinner, had my bath and came online. Shortly after, i saw TH online. Yay! Then asked him to switch his webcam on. I like to see him. Then we chatted, and I told him I'm scared of getting a negative outcome from him. Then he called me and we chatted for 35 minutes. He tries to ask me not to be scared and that he will not leave me. Well, I hope so....we shared quite a few things. One thing he still don't know is......I love his voice :). Goodnight..

5th June 2006:-

Just got back from Penang today. Was a great trip..had a wonderful time with TH. After the Penang trip, been thinking of him the whole day...though going to start work tomorrow, i'm not getting any Tuesday blues...it's all about him. He messaged me around 8:30pm, asking me what am i doing. I wasn't doing much...was online, hoping he'd come online....but I think he fell asleep on his bed while sms-ing to me. So, even as now i'm typing this blog entry, he didn't reply my sms, nor is he online. I miss him. I want to see him. I want to hear his voice. I want his hands to hold mine. When will it happen? Will it ever happen? God, I want it to happen.

4th June 2006:-

Morning visited Air Itam. Had lunch at Air Itam and Fatty Loh's chicken rice (recommended by TH). Went into the Toy museum alone...was a crap place unless you're a 3 year old. TH messaged me at 2 something. He was asking me what was my plan. He decided to come over the hotel at 4:30pm to go for a walk at the beach, just the two of us. He arrived around 5pm. It was too hot for a stroll around the beach. So, we just sat at the lobby lounge for a chat. Tried to ask him to play a piece on the grand piano...but he's too shy. Later brought my parents to the Botanical Garden. Found a solid wood chair...he took a seat and I sat next to him. He gave a chuckle. I asked him what is so funny. Apparently it's something to do with the scene that both of us was sitting on the same chair :). Had dinner at Gurney's hawker centre. Ate a whole lot. TH sweat a lot as usual due to the spicy food...as usual he smiles shyly. So cute....After dinner, we dropped my parents at the hotel. They decided to go walk at the night market. Me and TH headed to the beach. Before that, I had to change to my shorts...so we went into the hotel room. In the hotel room, TH insisted on giving me RM50 for the mistake I made in giving some money to the beggar during dinner. I declined his gesture. Still trying to insist, he sat next to me on the bed. I felt as if I'm being "sayang" by this guy. Felt real sweet. Then we took a stroll on the beach...it was dark....but nevertheless, romantic. Was hoping he'd hold my hand...but he didn't. Then we sat on a table by the beach...side by side....he offered to clear the sands away from my feet...i declined again, come to think of it, I should have allowed him ;p. We chatted and chatted. Then we decided to go back to the hotel to get the camera and welcoming drink voucher. We shared the drink together...still with two straws...looking forward to the day where there will not be two straws anymore, but only one straw. The drink was not fantastic. Kinda funny when both of us had to eat the ice cubes to use the glass to substitute the function of a tripod. The picture turned out well...

Later on, things got even more cute when I tried to bug him what is on his mind and he talked about the times when he used to have a crush on me in Melbourne. I remember those times very well till now. Then, he confessed to me that he liked me at the moment. But, there is one problem, the distance. Was kinda sad when he said he needed some time to think about the distance between us. I was allright with the distance, though I know I would love to see him everyday. I guess we both got quite shy after the confessions, I started to feel a bit cold and my hands started to shiver a bit. To hide my shyness, I started fiddling with my handphone and playing Snake....we ended having a challenge on that game. Then he offered his handphone for me to fiddle instead...i felt so sweet.....he was sitting very close next to me. I was hoping so much for him to hold my hand....but again, he didn't. Soon, it was 11 plus and he said it's time for him to go home as his mum is waiting for him. It was a very special night for me...the kind i didn't want it to end, but unfortunately, he has to go home. So he accompanied me back to the hotel room, and we said goodbye...I really hope to see him very very soon.

3rd June 2006:-

We arrive around 1pm. Informed TH of my arrival. Then he messaged me....he decided to come to the hotel at 6pm....later on, when he found out that my parents was asleep, he asked if i want to hang out with him, just the both of us. I agreed. But my parents couldn't really sleep...so in the end, he brought my parents to buy the famous Penang snacks. My parents was kind of fond on him. He joined us for dinner at Hot Wok restaurant. That was the first time I know that he sweats when he eats spicy food...very cute :). Then we send my parents home, and we went out to Gurney Plaza. Wanted to catch X-Men: The Last Stand. But there was no more tickets. So we went and look for a new spectacle frame for him. He didn't buy in the end, not sure what was the main reason. Then we went to Coffee Bean for a drink. We shared. Two straws...quite romantic, I thought. Then, he told me that the next time I come to Penang, he would like to bring me for a drive over the Penang bridge and return using the Ferry. Apparently it is very nice at night. I sure hope that will happen. At about 11pm, he sent me back to the hotel.